I posted on my Facebook wall
“I want to see myself,
to smile again, to laugh again.
Simply, cheers my heart up.
Where everybody goes?
I don’t want to enter those world again.
I’ve enough. Enough, it’s never enough. Economy rules the soul.
Pains written in every drops. Red as blood flows. Wet as rain falls.
When the storm is over, tell me. I want to see the rainbow. So I can smile again like I used before.” – Schizophernic Poetry Cheers
People asked, if it’s just a poetry or ??
I’d say that it’s my true feeling currently. I feel so sad that I could barely see myself laughing and smile again. Assignments drive me mad. I have been thinking of just run away and let it go, but, I can’t do that. I tend to be a strong woman, nothing could defeat me and my will. I tend to be a perfectionist, I want everythings done perfectly. But when I feel it’s hard to do it even normally, I cried. Yes, Last night I cried. That’s why I put “Pains written in every drops. Red as blood flows. Wet as rain falls.” Simply illustrate what I felt. I cried, My nose was red, Tears wet my cheek. I couldn’t cope with it. At first I felt like a very idiot person for I cried. But Obama said, “If you feel it’s hard, If you feel you can’t do it perfectly, It’s ok, It’s fine. It’s a part of learning to be strong. Mistakes and imperfections are all you need to be successful. So that you can learn from it to be better.”
Yes you read it right, It’s Obama, the President of United States. I was watching his speech for students in America from youtube, as a part of my film studies assignment.
In conclusion, Sometimes it’s hard to believe that “Nobody’s perfect”. But you are not accepting yourself fully if you don’t want to accept the other part of you, the imperfections that you have. Every “ningen” is builded by two side, positive and negative as well. To be a human fully, you need to know, accept and fix the positive and negative side of you. Don’t just run away!! AND, it IS hard, BUT you will always have those people around you who are willing to help you to get through this hurdle.
“Don’t be affraid kiddo, you’ll be just fine 
“,
“,I said to myself.
Cheers My Heart!!
6:44PM, 12 sept ’09
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